being sociable

hi there! i'm not actually used to express my thoughts in a proper way, thus the empty blog (^_^) but today i choose to think about one of my favourite 'thinking' topic, on being friendly and well-accepted. i am a reserved person by nature and won't talk much unless i find my partner very amiable. it's not that i'm being a snob, i'm not, but a combination of a naturally expressionless face and an equally neutral temperament is not doing any favour to me. i'm not good at talking and paying attention, thus my limited social circle. although i would like very much to expand it, i feel safe inside, i guess that could be called 'old slippers syndrome'. u feel comfortable with the slippers u've worn for long didn't u? as if they know your feet so well. i believe that this could have stemmed from the social blunders i made whenever i opened my mouth to speak.once i was invited to spend the night at a relative's place, who's quite well-off. now, i'm not used to spending my time with people from the upper class and felt rather out-of-place there. she cooked the dinner herself, and i knew she tried hard to impress us with a dish of river water fish. she encouraged me to try it which i did, just to find the fish rather tough. in my panic and embarrassment i said it out loud, failing to notice the change in her expression. what i said was meant to be an innocent call for help but apparently she didn't take it that way. it might well escape my notice if not for my sister, who scolded me afterward. of course i never get invited to her place anymore (q_p) that was just one sad example on how blunt and foolish i can be when it comes to being sweet hehe...therefore i think its much safer to keep it to yourself whatever it is u are thinking. there were times when i really can't hold the compulsion to be 'free with my speech' though, especially if i think it's well-deserved (^_^) i owe an apology to lots of people...

Comments

[FadHiLah]

i think u have the talent to become a journalist. why not gv urself a chance! hehehe aku rase mcm bace buku pride & prejudice plak bile bace article ko yg ni. xtau nape... :P

[FadHiLah]

umai, pls write mo often... ur work sorta food to my brain. hehehe :P